I catch sight of two dark streaks on the car window only to realise with horror that they are big black stripes under my eyes. As I peer more closely at myself, I realise how bloated I look by this pregnancy, how tired, fed-up. Shocked by what I see, I wonder if I scare animals [...]
Entries Tagged as 'Post-Partum Depression'
Seven months pregnant: the black dog
January 10th, 2008 · 10 Comments · Post-Partum Depression, Pregnancy
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Maternal depression, irritability and guilt
August 13th, 2006 · No Comments · Post-Partum Depression
I have been feeling increasingly sad, low and irritable recently. I haven’t had more than a few nights’ decent sleep in seven months so I’m fairly sure that is at the base of all this. I’ve been reading a lot about mild, persistent chronic depression. I’ve been reading a lot about maternal [...]
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Family life
August 1st, 2006 · No Comments · Not Enough Children, Post-Partum Depression
With a newborn in the house and two pre-schoolers thrown in on top, time is at a premium. Add in school holidays and ‘me’ time becomes almost non-existent. I have been blogging at one site or another for nearly two years now. My tagline for most of that time should have been “WATCH ME FALL [...]
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Ten minutes
June 14th, 2006 · No Comments · Post-Partum Depression, Too Many Children
So I’ve decided to stop wallowing in self-pity and to get on with Life. I chose this path, right? So I should just suck it up and get on with it. And the baby? Oh, well I’m going to pop him in the cot in the corner and leave him to [...]
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Depression, post-partum depression or something alot like it
June 5th, 2006 · No Comments · Post-Partum Depression
As you will have noticed I have stopped posting very frequently. The reasons for this are:
1) I have no time to myself
2) I usually have a baby in my arms (this makes me both happy – I have a baby – and unhappy – he wants carrying pretty much all the time)
3) I have [...]
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Apparently we have a black dog in the family and it has been here some time
March 14th, 2006 · No Comments · Post-Partum Depression
The babe and I had our eight week post-natal check yesterday. I’m tired but I have enjoyed the last eight weeks, enjoyed getting to know my new baby. I’m definitely in love.
So it was something of a surprise when the health visitor assessed my Edinburgh Test and declared me on the borderline of [...]
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Postpartum depression
February 15th, 2006 · No Comments · Post-Partum Depression
Yesterday I admitted to a friend something that I have not really admitted to anyone out loud: that when I was suffering depression after second son, William, was born there were times when I contemplated suicide.
Ironically the only thing that saved me was the same thing that led me to think such thoughts: my children. [...]
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Isolated parenting
October 26th, 2005 · Comments Off · Post-Partum Depression, The Politics of Motherhood
On Monday I watched a programme called “Having a Baby Ruined my Life“. I would normally avoid programmes like this because having a baby didn’t ruin my life – although it made it bloody hard at times – and any programme broadcast on Channel Five is generally rubbish. But as I watched I found [...]
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Thirteen weeks pregnant: ante-natal and post-natal depression
June 27th, 2005 · Comments Off · Post-Partum Depression, Pregnancy
Today I was called in to see my doctor for a “chat”. This is not a usual thing.
It turned out he wanted to assess me for ante-partum depression and the possibility that I might succumb to post-natal depression after the baby is born. It didn’t go well.
Doctor L: “How are you? Are you feeling [...]
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Helping myself
April 12th, 2005 · Comments Off · Post-Partum Depression
There are, I have decided, three things contributing to my ongoing depression. One is the fact that because we have decided to try for another baby (no news yet, before you ask) I cannot/do not want to take any medication. So I feel rather out on a limb because I know that I have to [...]
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