On Friday we went for family counselling.
I could stop there and leave that loaded sentence to show how crappy things have really become round here. But there’s a reason I blog anonymously and it’s so I can share with you the, err, let’s call it grittier shall we, side of life. Basically, I’m everything you’re [...]
Entries Tagged as 'All Gone Wrong'
Counseling
February 1st, 2010 · 10 Comments · All Gone Wrong
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Words no parent should ever have to hear
February 23rd, 2009 · 27 Comments · All Gone Wrong, FSGS and Nephrotic Syndrome
The initial biopsy results are back. My little boy has FSGS and I am completely and utterly heartbroken.
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Biopsy
February 9th, 2009 · 10 Comments · All Gone Wrong
The words are delivered by our very nice paediatric consultant as lightly as she can muster: ‘William needs a kidney biopsy’ and I know that at this point, statistically, the prognosis for William looks suddenly a great deal worse.
William has made very little progress. In fact the only difference between now and when he was [...]
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Nephrotic Syndrome
January 9th, 2009 · 7 Comments · All Gone Wrong, FSGS and Nephrotic Syndrome
My Second Son William is very poorly in hospital with kidney problems and nephrotic syndrome, neither of which are so far responding to treatment. I’m worried, Matthew is shattered (he’s doing nights in the hospital, where sleep is never allowed with all the coming and going), Harry is badly missing his best buddy and we [...]
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Sleep deprivation
September 29th, 2008 · 6 Comments · All Gone Wrong, Sleep
When I am sleep deprived I feel like a giant vacuum cleaner has sucked the air out of my immediate horizon, flattening it and taking the colour right with it too.
Sleep deprivation makes me stop returning phone calls, increasing my loneliness.
When I am chronically tired – so tired that I want to run the car [...]
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Ass Botox and anal fissures
August 22nd, 2008 · 11 Comments · All Gone Wrong, Pregnancy
There is no way of putting this politely. Despite a near-perfect birth and a pretty perfect baby, I have another not quite so fun legacy of my recent childbirth experience: my backside is in bad shape. For those of you who know me personally I’M SO SORRY TO SHARE THIS WITH YOU and please feel [...]
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Even the house aches with emptiness
February 21st, 2008 · 1 Comment · All Gone Wrong, Dog Days
‘We can all have breakfast together now,’ I say brightly but my heart aches with emptiness.
Two nights ago I was awake from 2am sitting with my poorly dog.
Last night I was awake from 3am, grieving for her.
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‘Defa doesn’t seem quite herself this evening,’ I say to Matthew as he gets home on Monday. We both [...]
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Enjoying these days
November 22nd, 2007 · No Comments · All Gone Wrong, Dog Days
The dog is home and until last night was doing basically okay. Tuesday’s test confirmed pancreatitis and a shortenened life expectancy.
Today she is very sick again. If she is going to be repeatedly sick and/or in and out of the vet for stressful overnight stays we will have to consider her quality of life. If [...]
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When what you’re doing might not be enough
August 23rd, 2007 · No Comments · All Gone Wrong
William is my boisterous four year old. He is in many ways still my baby: not wanting to leave me when he goes to preschool, still sucking his fingers and unable to leave his muzzy comforter at home, still needing cuddles. But in many other ways he is so obviously not a baby: he is [...]
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All over again
February 12th, 2007 · Comments Off · All Gone Wrong, Dog Days
Monday
‘Where’s Brax?’ the cleaner asks brightly when she arrives.
‘We buried her this morning,’ I reply glumly, tears pricking at my eyes.
Sunday
I clear away breakfast, watching Brax carefully. She and I have been up since three, seeking comfort in each other as she struggles to breathe. My parents are on their way home. I have already [...]
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