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Out here
By ella | July 13, 2006
I’m walking through the fields, ripe with wheat, each step feeling a little lighter as I leave the long day behind. The baby, his skin enraged by eczema, sleeps his exhausted sleep so I sneak out, the golden fields beckoning me. The dogs race ahead of me, behind me, startling birds and rabbits. The cool evening sun - just a bit too cool - quickens my pace and with it I feel a burst of energy.
Away from the house I look back, thinking of my family inside. I can think objectively out here, remembering how lucky I am, how much I wanted children, marriage, family life, how life is exactly how I wanted it. I can forget momentarily the concertina of tantrums thrown by the older two only a few minutes earlier. I can feel the weight of the baby lifting literally and figuratively from my shoulders with every step. I can put aside for a minute the long list of chores yet to be done.
Golden fields. Out here the world seems a little bit larger, a little more in perspective. And that can only be a good thing.
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Categories: Not Enough Children, Playtime
Gorgeous picture and gorgeous post.
Its good to be reminded of why we do the whole children-thing sometimes! Great stuff.
Glad to hear you’re getting a bit of time to yourself, and what a great setting!
Sometimes it’s the stolen moments alone that allow us to regain our sanity. As much as I cherish my children and the fact that I’m able to be a stay at home mom, I need those moments.
Fantastic post.
Your photo looks exactly like the view from the backyard of my parents’ farm home here on the Canadian prairies.
There’s something about that view that reminds me of the abundances I am fortunate to be able to enjoy in this life. Sounds like it had the same effect on you.
What a wonderful post.
walks are very important, how nice that you have such a lovely place to center yourself
I want a nanny so I can take walks…my husband works way too much!
Good for you. Your prairie is gorgeous.